Keto Friendly Pumpkin Spice Cheesecakes (for the basic bitch in all of us).

Ingredients:

  • 8oz cream cheese (room temperature, makes it mix easier).
  • 1/4 cup sour cream.
  • 1/2 cup heavy whipping cream.
  • 1/2 cup erythritol.
  • 1 Tbsp Pumpkin Pie Seasoning (McCormick)

Combine the cream cheese, sour cream, heavy whipping cream, and erythritol sweetner in a mixer and mix until smooth.  Add the pumpkin pie seasoning, and continue to mix at medium to high speed until fluffy.

Either pour it in a pan, or into cupcake papers… place in the freezer for an hour or two (or refrigerator for twice that) to set and enjoy.

12 servings total, 110 calories, 11g of fat, and 0.7g carbs per.

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Clear blue sky, crisp air, was a beautiful day.

If you’d told me 16 years ago that I’d actually be working down here, in NYC, I would have thought you were nuts.

Growing up, everyone remembered where they were when JFK was assassinated.

I’ll always remember where I was on this day, 16 years ago.  Sitting at my desk at the library system I was working for.  While in a chatroom, bullshitting with my friends one tells us ‘a plane just hit one of the twin towers.’

“How the hell do you hit a big ass building?”

Second plane hit… we all realized at the same time nothing was going to be the same again. We lost a lot of innocent people, we lost a lot of our innocence, our naivety.

Still sitting at my desk, trying to take in what was going on as every single news site on the Internet was crawling due to the load… my entire Rockland County network went red.  When one of the towers collapsed, beams launched through the roads and into the basement at a Verizon collocation, flooding it and shutting it down.

The rest of the day I was on the road, visiting every library that had a modem and restoring connectivity back to the main library network over dialup as all our circuits were gone indefinitely.  Was eerie driving on 17E doing 20 over the limit… passing rows of State Troopers sitting on the median all listening to their radios in the same shock as everyone else.

Everyone I spoke to that day had the same stunned…disconnected look on their face.

I don’t think it really hit me until a few days later, after my job for the time being was done… I’m almost glad I was so busy on 9/11/2001.  I’ll never forget that morning though.

Clear blue sky, crisp air, was a beautiful day.

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Embrace the whatever.

So I’m sitting here, on the second day of my 39th year (that means I’m 38)… and I am lonely as fuck.  I’m sitting here watching Netflix, playing a video game on my laptop, drinking coffee with coconut oil in it to lose weight, and looking up quotes about loneliness online.

Are you fucking kidding me?

Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it’s not because they enjoy solitude. It’s because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them.

—Jodi Picoult

I’m so tired of chasing people down who have no desire to be my friend.

I’m exhausted of trying to have conversations where I’m the only one paying attention or giving a shit.  I try to acknowledge everyone when they speak (unless they’re being a total douchebag)…  When I speak?  Few and far between are those who cast a glance my way and spare a few neurons to acknowledge me.

I’m sick of the games… of all my desires coming up short of being fulfilled, or being perpetually beyond my reach.

Jesus Christ I’m going to be 40 in 2 years, and I have very little doubt that despite my efforts, despite how hard I try, or how much I struggle to find those I can open up to… I’ll be sitting here on 9/7/2019, watching Netflix, playing video games, alone.

Humanity only seems to accept me through pity, after I subvert who I am enough in order to “fit in.”  That’s why I find humanity to be such a grand fucking disappointment.

So yeah, I guess I’m a loner, destined to stand on the outside looking in, jaded, tired, and wanting.  I give up as I warmly embrace the whatever.

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Ketogenic Fat Bombs (Dark Chocolate Peanut Butter Cheesecake Bites).

Really can’t stand when an online recipe has 5 pages explaining the life experience of whoever came up with it, to wit – this is a modification of a recipe I found online to add more chocolate and more flavor to what was a pretty bland recipe that tasted like frozen cream cheese.

  • 8oz of Cream Cheese (room temp, makes it easier to mix)
  • 2 Tbsp Smucker’s Natural Peanut Butter
  • 1/2 cup salted butter (Kerry Gold)
  • 4oz Bakers Unsweetened Chocolate
  • 1 Tbsp Hershey’s Dark Chocolate Baking Powder
  • 1/2 Tbsp Vanilla Extract
  • 1/2 Tbsp Almond Extract
  • 1/2 Cup Erythritol sweetener.

Place the cream cheese and peanut butter in a large mixing bowl.  Melt the butter and chocolate, stirring constantly.  Add the vanilla/almond extract and sweetener, continue to stir. Once it’s all melted together, pour it over the cream cheese and peanut butter, then blend with a mixer on high for at least 2 minutes.  Pour into a 7″ x 11″ pan lined with parchment paper, level it out with a rubber spatula and toss it in the freezer to set.  Can be left in the freezer or fridge, good for a fat craving (sweet cravings don’t really exist on keto).

The nutrition facts are as follows (per serving, 16 total).

  • 135.6 Calories
  • 11g Fat
  • 1g Net Carbs
  • 1g Protein
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People have a right to look like idiots, and I encourage them to do so.

“Every record has been destroyed or falsified, every book rewritten, every picture has been repainted, every statue and street building has been renamed, every date has been altered. And the process is continuing day by day and minute by minute. History has stopped. Nothing exists except an endless present in which the Party is always right.” – George Orwell, 1984.

Looking at the Facebook posts of my “friends” I must be a Nazi simply because I don’t buy the media’s story or manipulations of the Charlottesville incident.  Even the ones not bold or ignorant enough to directly lob these bullshit label grenades still click “like” instead of patting the misinformed useful idiot on the head and ignoring the tantrum.  The media controls the story – Trump is doing his damnest to try and stem the tide but logic and truth are getting drowned the hell out.

What a world it could be if the media simply reported the news instead of creating or shaping it.  Trump says there were peaceful protestors at the site, upset about the removal of historic monuments (put up by Democrats) when others rushed in with weapons.  The video is out there, to ignore it is to completely lack intellectual honesty… but we’re past that.  The establishment WANTS emotional reaction.  They want truth and logic to be buried under fire and fury funded by George Soros and his bile spewing ilk.  There’s always more than one side to hate, Mr Swarzenegger.  Multiple hate groups stole the attention from anyone simply there to protest removing the statue, but the media and those who can’t seem to think outside the media’s confines only seem interested on acknowledging the ones who weren’t paid to be there.

It seems every week there’s some new accusation against the plain old ordinary right wingers like me.  When I look at the left, I don’t paint them all with the broad brush of those idiots who were burning books and rioting at Berkely and would expect the same in return but hey – logic’s a bitch when your every thought is shaped by a fake news media hell bent on controlling the story.

I could take the easy way out and say “Hey, but there’s a statue of Lenin in Seattle, and he’s responsible for more deaths than Robert E Lee ever was” but hey – I don’t believe history should be rewritten.  If the people of Seattle honestly think Lenin deserves a statue, then I believe they’ve got the right to look like blithering idiots in the annals of history.

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You know…

I had a brief stint as a parent a few years ago, and when children throw tantrums generally speaking you should let them.  Eventually they’ll give up and tire out.  That said, the kids aren’t tearing down monuments, beating the shit out of people for the color of their skin or political affiliations, burning books, and so on.  Eventually an adult needs to step in and say to everyone “CUT THE SHIT” along with a good solid spanking.  The establishment and their media compatriots frame the stories how they see fit for maximum effect and results, to keep a segment of the population wound up whether or not they’re being funded by George Soros and his ilk…  As long as the media feeds these useful idiots, the idiots will continue to happily lap the poison up and react until their last dying breath.

It’s not so much that I’m tired of politics, or sick of arguing politics, it’s just that a large portion of the population seems to get carte blanche when it comes to reaction, they get all the attention while the rest of us are going on with our day to day lives – invisible yet conscious of the absurdity and wondering who will finally spank the shit out of these folks and restore some semblance of sanity to the public discourse.

Nobody’s mind is getting changed, some of my best friends are on the complete other side of the political spectrum from myself – yet I’ve no desire to pummel them into submission and visa versa.  What is it going to take for the populace in general to get there or at least head in that direction?  I say for starters shut the door and let the kids scream and cry themselves to sleep, but when the doors are jammed open by the establishment media – it’s hard to come up with a constitutionally appropriate method to reign in the tantrum.

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Losing Rules.

When I got back from vacation on July 8th, I weighed myself and rung in at a hearty 270lbs.  I’m was out of shape, on high blood pressure medication, and generally had the energy and motivation of a sloth on Ambien.  Then a little voice in my head said it was time to change that.  I decided to take on the “keto” lifestyle and as a result, 1 month later I’m 250lbs.  I still have a ways to go but so far I’m thoroughly enjoying the results.

My energy levels are way up, my motivation to do… anything has drastically increased.  My blood pressure is stabilizing, my cholesterol is down, and the digestive issues that have plagued me my entire life are nearly a distant memory.  What is “keto?”  A very low carb, high fat and protein diet.  You cut carbs to the point your body is forced to burn stored fat as fuel.  That’s the TL;DR version.  I’m not entirely sure how far it is off of Atkins, but I know the last time I attempted any low-carb diet I went from 260lbs to 220lbs pretty damned quick.  It took me a good 6 years to get back up to my lounging weight.

Anyhow, cutting carbs hasn’t been a huge deal for me.  My sweet tooth is all but non-existent.  I don’t miss bread, pasta, even pizza (I’ll get to that later).  If I have breakfast, it’s usually bacon and eggs made in bacon grease.  Lunch?  Double bacon cheeseburger in a lettuce wrap.  Dinner?  Chicken, Pork, or Steak that I usually incorporate bacon into (especially the leaner pork/chicken in order to drive the saturated fat content up).  I don’t get hungry a lot – if I do, usually a handful of salted almonds does the trick.

Pizza?  I still have it but I make it myself.  Either the Fathead variety (crust composed of almond flour and cheese) – or my preference the Chicken Crust variety.  A crust entirely made of shredded chicken with garlic, basil, oregano, parmesan, and an egg.  Top it with cheese and bacon – it’s heavenly and supremely satisfying (and very low carb).  If I do get a craving for something sweet, I’ve gotten into making these little chocolate cheesecake bites with bakers chocolate, cream cheese, and erythritol sweetener… again very low carb, but completely satisfying.

So right now I’m basically a month and a week in, down 20lbs, and if my current weight loss rate continues I’ll be at or below 200lbs by Christmas while eating things I already enjoyed all the while cutting the crap that kept me fluffy.  I’m gonna miss my gut…not. 🙂

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The sky isn’t falling, get a grip.

So over the weekend I spent some time with family, and got to experience first hand the lunacy of establishment media indoctrination.  An 11 year old passionately expressed to me that because of “the wall” there will be “no more Mexicans” or “Mexican food.”  This is what the establishment media counts on.  This is what the “Progressive” Left relies on.  When the claim of dishonesty arose, I asked for an example and got “After the boy-scouts speech he said the head of the boy-scouts called him” which had since been whittled down to statements made in person, not over the phone.  Ah hah!  A lie!  If someone told you something, and you happen to say it was in person or over the phone, but it was the opposite… does it really fucking matter?

We’ve got Kim Jong Un firing off rockets like it’s the 4th of July, threatening nuclear destruction on the USA and its allies, and who does the media focus on?  Trump and his response.  24 years ago, on the topic of North Korea’s saber rattling President Clinton stated: “we would quickly and overwhelmingly retaliate” and “It would mean the end of their country as they know it.”

Where was the media outrage?  Where were the cooler minds asking him to calm his rhetoric?  Is it just that nobody takes a Democrat seriously when they make threats?

The sky isn’t falling.  Get a grip.

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So…

Hard to believe it’s been 4 years since I even touched this thing (that’s what she said).  Previously, I blogged from the late 90’s to well… (looks down)… 2013.  I’ve kept much of my rants contained on Facebook which allowed me to overlook this catalog of a good chunk of my life.  Turns out one of the plugins in this WordPress setup was the primary reason every page look so damned long to load.

Anyhow, if this pops up on a random feed out of the blue and you’re wondering where the hell I’ve been – Hello!

More updates to come soon as I try to bring this site back from… wherever the hell it’s been.

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Syriasly?

Just want to make my point of view clear as far as all the BS circulating over the possibility of US military involvement in Syria.  First, the civil war in Syria isn’t a threat to the US.  If they attack Israel?  Sure.  Right now it’s just a dictatorship vs a terrorist insurgency.  If we attack government forces in Syria, we’re aiding “Al Qaeda” and other terrorist groups.  The president himself absolutely set a red line on what would qualify the recalculation of his equation as far as how to deal with Syria.  The president, through the war powers act, is allowed to wage war for a period of 90 days without congressional approval.  That he’s going through the motions of gaining congressional approval is nothing more than politics meant to deflect his responsibility for the outcome of any action or in-action.

I supported the invasions of Iraq and Afghanistan while the media and anti-war crowd read us all the riot act on a daily basis.  After 8 years (now 13 years) of continued war it’s safe to say that my eyes have been open for quite some time as to what should justify our involvement.  Everyone’s eyes should be open, and everyone should be shouting from the rooftops, calling their representatives, and demanding that Obama go back to sitting on his green thumb.  Many polls indicate a dearth of support for military involvement in Syria.  The American people don’t want this any more than they wanted Obamacare.  Russia and Iran are both ready to deal with the fight we are trying to pick, and it’s about time we all say ENOUGH.  To the silent media and acquiescent anti-war crowd that have apparently been drowned in a flood of hope and change, I say SHAME ON YOU ALL.

You are nothing more than hypocrites being lead from behind by a hypocrite, and I thank you for your vote… morons.

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